Revelations are funny...
According to Webster, a "Revelation" is defined as the revealing or disclosing,through active or passive communication with supernatural entities. But see, Our God is not an "entity" , and the reason I want to make this clear is because, at least from a personal standpoint, I hear the word "entity"and I think of the movie Paranormal , and that is FAR from God or anything Christ like!
My whole reason for bringing this up is because I'm pretty sure I experienced one today right in my car with the radio on sitting in the parking lot after just pulling into campus for my evening class. This is where the title of this blabbering blog comes in.
I'm a huge Steven Curtis Chapman music fan, but I truly wish he could know how God used him this evening in my life. Now, I don't know if any of you have heard his music or are even familiar with the name, but 'Steven' has been creating music for over 25 years, and 15 of those have been firmly given to God through every song and every album. Like I said, big fan. But tonight was not about Steven Curtis Chapman. Tonight was about God using one of his beloved children in order to shake, break, and bring another one of his children to her knees (which is not easy to do at the wheel of a parked car).
A song came on. A song I have loved for the last year since I first heard it on the radio, and one I have played over and over and over again since. However, the song "When Love Takes You In" hit me extremely differently tonight...it changed everything.
I grew up in a Christian home form the time I was born until I moved out, and though I claimed to know God, I wasn't saved until my teens. It's been years now since I was saved, and as most imperfect human beings, I have still had my ups and down in life as well as in my relationship with God. To be clear I have never ONCE stopped loving or believing, but the last 7 months or so I have felt as if I was losing or possibly had LOST the "connection". That bond, that overpowering love that you can not help but devote yourself entirely to. I was missing it, and it felt as if there would be no finding it. I was sinning even more than usual, and was not following anything up in prayer or asking for forgiveness, yet I couldn't figure out why I was "losing"!?!
Reading all of that, it seems like the answer was pretty clear, huh? Well I couldn't see ANY of that...until tonight.
"When Love Takes you In" made me listen, and before it even reached the chorus God broke me and I couldn't have been more resistant. Before I knew it, tears were flowing and I was praying...praying the way I used to. The same way I use to always talk to my Daddy in the Heavens. It was scary, it was beautiful, it was nerve-wracking, it was appreciated, it was fought, it was fulfilling....it was the answer and by no means did it happen because of me!!!
I found myself BEGGING for forgiveness, and I kid you not when I say I could totally feel my heart rejoicing and opening ten million times! God broke me, and in doing so filled my heart with so much healing and joy! (And HE is the ONLY guy who can break you, but not your heart!)
He is amazing, and gave me a Revelation tonight: When I feel lonely, or lost it has everything to do with me, because he will NEVER leave unless I completely deny him...even when I convince myself in my own stupid way that I deserve to be left.
So Thank you God! Thank you for opening my eyes and finally healing my hurt heart that so terribly wanted to find you again! Thank you for opening that heart and my eyes and mind to what I must change and what I must always do to never lose this relationship I have with you!
And thank you Steven Curtis Chapman, for using the magical gift of music God has blessed you with.
Because of Our Heavenly Father you have done more than made a few words and music notes sound good tonight, you have been used as a tool to transform another one of HIS children!
UNTIL NEXT TIME:
When Love Takes You In
Written and Recorded by: Steven Curtis Chapman
"I know you’ve heard the stories
But they all sound too good to be true
You’ve heard about a place called home
But there doesn’t seem to be one for you
So one more night you cry yourself to sleep
And drift off to a distant dream
Where love takes you in and everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in
And somewhere while you’re sleeping
Someone else is dreaming too
Counting down the days until
They hold you close and say I love you
And like the rain that falls into the sea
In a moment what has been is lost in what will be
When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
And this love will never let you go
There is nothing that could ever cause this love to lose its hold
When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in it takes you in for good
When love takes you in"
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