God Sent me My Angel....

So, it was either in my 1st or 2nd post that I mentioned to you a man named Taylor Gardner.

Now to many of you, it sounds silly that I would introduce him this way because you know him or at least know of him and WHO he is in my life. For those who don't,Taylor Edward Gardner is the Love of my life, my boyfriend, whom God "technically" blessed into my life 16 years ago when I was four years old as the annoying, mean boy down the street, but "officially" placed as more than just a friend in my life when I was 17 years old. I have been filled with the most amazing blessings and joys through out the past 2.5 years of being his girlfriend, and it has been nothing less than a whirlwind of unexplainable feelings.

But what I actually want to share with you about this great man, goes beyond feelings. You see "Love" is NOT a feeling at all. Love is not desire, nor pleasure. Now don't get me wrong, being IN love can certainly bring about such things, but True Love is an eternal life-mode, if you will.

I am in Love with Taylor because he is a man of God. Taylor, as much as he expresses and shows such a strong and beautiful love towards me, could never rank our love in the same category as the love he has for God. God is always first and foremost in Tay's life, and seeing as we are all humans and make major mistakes this is not to say he is perfect in any way, but God asks us not to strive AWAY from perfection either this shines through Taylor as his number one priority in his life. He has a beaming desire to share Our gracious Father's love with all that he meets, and I feel so blessed to me a witness and a participant in it all.

I am in Love with Taylor because he pushes me to the brim, and trust me when I say he is a persistent man! This is not just in my moments of laziness, but more noted during my moments of self-doubt, unhappiness, and when I am simply unmotivated. I can't tell you how many times he will gently hold my head between his hands, showering me with compliments about the amazing woman of God he sees in me, and force me to push on and reach for the potential God has granted me.

I am in Love with Taylor because he is so determined in his own life. He doesn't believe in wasting a moment in life, and I will admit sometimes I have to make him just sit down, breathe, and watch a single T.V. show, haha! But in all honesty, it is such a blessing each and every day to see him going after the next project, next type of  community service, or his personal favorite, the next type of fundraiser to organize! Beyond all of this he is determined to have a successful future, and not in a materialistic way, but through God's way, and because of this determination he thinks  and prays everything through (something I lack...)

I am in Love with Taylor because he accepts everything about me. From day 1 when we were just friends we started a very "out in the open" type of relationship. I can honestly say that Tay knows everything that I did before 'us' and everything I have done while we've been together. He knows my faults and weaknesses as well as my strong points...and there is not one thing he desires to change about me. I've had a past that I thought I could easily brush away, never talk about, and soon forget...and then I met Tay. I always tease him & give him a hard time about it, but he as brought me into a willingness to share things which I have never spoken of to anyone but God...and even for those things, he loves me!

I am in Love with Taylor because he knows the real meaning of Love...God's meaning, and he shares it everyday with others. Taylor has shown me what it means to have a servants heart. We have had conversations over and over again about how he has said yes without question when I know I probably would have tried to find a way out. I have witnessed this love of Taylor's displayed towards his family, friends, and even complete strangers off the street.

I am in Love with Taylor because he can totally have no way to relate to something I'm dealing with/talking about, but he is completely understanding. I come to him about everything and he is always there to just hold me, whether physically or through his gentle words when we can't be together face to face. He always knows when to speak, and when to listen, and he knows when advice is needed and also when it is okay to say he doesn't really know what to say. He allows me to vent, and just when I'm trying not to put too many of my burdens on him, he pleads for me to talk more and always reminds me "If I can't be here for you like this, what am I here for!?" :)

I am in Love with Taylor because he keeps me accountable, and vise versa. We truly are each others accountability partners, and I love hearing Tay when I am most in need saying, "Let's pray about it." I may not like to admit it, but I know that I need someone there to hold me accountable for things I try to sweep under the rug, and God could not have given me someone more perfect than Taylor. He's not afraid to bring things to my attention, but he is able to do it in the most respectful way.

I am in Love with Taylor for the last reason I just mentioned, he respects me to a  T (no pun intended). He will be there for me and share his opinion on my decisions and actions, but he has always been there at my side 100% when it comes down to it (and trust me, I can think of a few things right of the bat he hasn't necessarily agreed with.) He not only respects my decisions, but he respects me as a person. Through my moods, my "girl" moments, and up to my standards, pride, morals and values. When it comes to those things, he doesn't just respect me and where I stand on them, but he joins me in agreement with them.

I am in Love with Taylor because he is my best friend. Even as we head towards 3 years together (yes I know, it's not THAT long), but even still we could talk for days on end. We have  literally spent non-stop days into weeks with each other and it still never seems to be enough; there hasn't been a moment of getting sick of each other! We make each other laugh at things no one else would understand, and we have our own languages and nicknames like we're little kids again! But at the same time, he is my rock and after my God he is the one person I can trust in this world no matter what. He is real and honest with me, not afraid to be blunt when it's needed, but he knows how to be romantic and kind when I need it most, and even at the most unexpected times. Every moment I'm with him just feels like I'm playing.

I am in Love with Taylor because in him, God Sent me My Angel.




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"You are so beautiful, my love, in every part of you."
~Song of Solomon 4:7