INSOMNIA...

At 4:15 this morning I found myself wide awake, after a failed attempt to be awake @ 2:45 a.m. for an expected meteor shower.

*sigh* but to my dismay, not a single star has yet to "rain" past my window...

MAJOR fail Mr. Weatherman. 

Anywhoooo...
There I was still wide awake after 4 a.m. and I began browsing facebook and in doing so I ran across some old friends, The Williamson sisters, Kristin Dittman and Alexa Williamson. As creaperish as it may sound I somehow found myself scrolling through both of their blogs and well...now here  I am! All of this to say I owe my first blog experience to one of my old baby-sitters and her younger sister, a beautiful girl I use to play with down the street in good ol' Pebble Creek.

Now I'm not sure what will come of this new blog of mine. It could be neglected, something I visit from time to time to keep you update on life occurrences. However, it could also be an everyday diary for me, a way to vent and let out feelings which the day did not allow me to express...who knows!

I've been debating the whole "telling you about myself" ordeal, simply because I figure those who read this probably already know, but just to cover the basis (in-case I'm wrong) I'll lay it out on the table:

My name is Kelsi Aurelia Martin. My first name had no real meaning to it at the time my parents gave it to me, but we did later find out it was the maiden name of my great-great-great grandmother. Middle name is the opposite in the way that it has MAJOR significance as my grandmother's first name, my mother's middle name, passed down to me, and one day will be my first daughters name (don't judge me). The last name of course has been passed on through multiple generations of the "Martin clan", and though I haven't always, I am beginning to see the importance of owning this name and appreciating all it has brought me.

I grew up with very loving parents who continue to provide for me beyond measure! They were my best friends until I was 17, but as I began to suddenly discover what it meant to have an opinion and stand up for myself, things got rocky. I believe this is why God created "college"; for every student at this age to go off and LEAVE home, so as to relieve tension from both parties.
I did just that and now I hate every time I have to head back to school; my parents are back to being the ones I can ALWAYS turn to!
Straight out of High Schoo l I left for University of North Florida in Jacksonville in May 2008. It was quaint, it was was quiet, and it was 2 miles away from your toes in the water and booty in the sand (yes, the beach)! I was having a blast, and at the same time was slowly falling for a young man back in Tampa all via phone conversation and e-mails for 3.5 months. His name is Taylor Gardner, and our story is literally like a spider's web so that will have to be saved for another blog. For now, we'll just say that things took a turn in my mind and in my heart and I found myself returning to Tampa for College in Fall 2008. I attended Hillsborough Community College From January 2009-August 2010 and now I am (hopefully) settled in at The University of Central Florida in Orlando aiming for a Bachelors in Child Protective Investigation with a minor is Criminal Sociolgy.
Don't get too scrambled with my unorganized ramblings, but before I led into my schooling I was talking about my parents/ family. My parentals also have one other child, my dear sister, Amanda Kaitlin Martin, and I love her more than I will ever be able to explain!!! At first glance you may notice her to be different, but as you get inside that playful and dream-filled soul of hers you'll see that her heart is no different than yours or mine. She's the biggest part of my inspiration to work with kids and make sure they are placed in safe and caring households filled with love. Like any siblings we have our quarrels and annoyances with each other, but I wouldn't trade her for anyone in the world...Love you "Big Sissy"!
My life now is more blessed than I deserve, and waaaaaay more than I ever dreamed of. In fact, it's not at all where or how or what I saw for myself, but God is so great that I have no doubt as long as I am keeping up my end of the bargain of tuning in to HIM, I know it's gonna' be greater than anything I could ever plan for myself!

Getting here has been tragic, enjoyable, heartbreaking, funny, insightful, risky, and an overall experience I would never take back, because no matter what has happened I am still alive and breathing happily today!

Wow...I really didn't plan to write that much. Hmmmm...well, can't say I didn't warn you about my "rambling" (it's right at the top of the page if you forgot)



UNTIL NEXT TIME...
^"For you created my inmost being;
   you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
   your works are wonderful,
   I know that full well" --Psalm 139: 13-14